My blog was all about my training, but now it's about living with an incurable disease that robs a little piece of me every day.
Sunday, April 16, 2017
A little bread means a lot
I thought about that as I happily munched my braided Easter egg bread sitting on the deck with my husband this morning. I sipped my coffee, took a bite of the orangey almondy goodness. The sweet of the glaze was the perfect accompaniment to the bitterness of my coffee.
I got thinking of eating it growing up, of when my mom sent me the recipe for this particularly tasty one, thought of the piece I sent home with Bailey so she could have it after they hunted eggs this morning. I thought of the day we had planned. A whole lot of nothing with my family, eating a feast together, and just hanging out. The happiness it brought might seem silly for a taste of bread. But it wasn't really the bread that made me that happy now was it?
All of sudden I felt this deep sense of gratitude. Gratitude for the life I have, gratitude for a change I decided to make awhile ago. That I was done with the disease of more. That I wanted to appreciate all that I had and not wish for anything more. To truly appreciate the present, immerse myself in it and just be.
To realize that I have everything I need and most of what I want.
I thought it would be so hard to change my thought process and never stop wanting more and more. Surprisingly it wasn't. Surprisingly it was liberating to break free of those thoughts that held me hostage, realize I don't need anything more. That I could truly be happy with every thing I have, and to realize the things that truly matter. The things that don't come with a dollar sign attached. That I don't need to flash in someone's face. My family? I marvel at how much I love each one of them. How happy I am when we are together. Our health? I realize just how fragile health can be and I pray every day for that for all of those I love.
But fancy cars? No thank you.
Fancy jewelry? Nope.
Time with my people? Yes.
All of us healthy and appreciating all we have?
Yes, please.
I am grateful for holidays like today. The introspection and peace they give me. The traditions and memories they have created.
I wish you all a beautiful day.
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